A Case of The Mean Reds

So I think I have reached the point where I really don't know what to do with myself. I am in school and working a part time job that gives me little hours. I don't know how to operate without being busy. I enjoy the stress of being occupied all the time. I've been trying to find things to keep be busy but I just feel so worthless and wasteful. I just hope the semester picks up and I have something to keep on my mind. For the past month I have found a few things to keep myself away from boredum. I've read a book, experimented with numerous recipes, binged on frozen foods and canned fruit, watched 3 seasons of Will and Grace, started running (ok like 4 times), and done a few crunches.

I used to work at an athletic club where I got a free membership. I enjoyed lap swimming and yoga classes. Since I quit, I lost my membership. I'm longing to go for a swim and yearn for the relaxation of a yoga class. So I am thinking about joining a gym. I found one that has memberships starting at around $20/ month. It's all a month to month kind of thing. There is one location about 3 blocks from my house and another location on my school's campus. I would really like to join but I am not sure I can make that work with my finances now that my job decided to turn into 'hour nazis.'



Maybe it's just a mid-college crisis. Nothing to do and the path to my graduation is seeming very long and bleek. The end looks just as miserable. All I want is to finish school, have a good job, and live comfortably. For some reason I am afraid that it will not happen. Maybe it's SAD- you know that winter depression disease. What ever it is, I hope that this little party ends soon. As one Holly Golightly once said "I have a case of the mean reds."